Decided, I need to take a break from things and try too focus my mind a little bit.

For the past.. god, probably few years, I havent been sure about myself. Who I am, what I want too do, who I want too be. In both the fur, and real side of life.

People who've known me a long time will know that since about 2002 when I first found the fandom, my fursonal image has changed quite a bit, and, unfortunately at the same time, quite frequently. And a friend broght it too my attention that my instability in a visage for my online self, could come from my instability in my real self.

One person thats inspired me too do a little soul seeking, is also a well known comedian and advice giver within the fandom, 2 The Ranting Gryphon, often telling people with this same or similar issue that they just need too find themself, and that most furs who, like me, change thier visage alot, do it because they too are continually changing in the real world trying too find what the yare and how they settle in.

Hopefully soon, I'll know who n what I am, both IRL, and in the fandom.

Heads up though for fans of my Mag character, I plan on keeping him, fursona or not, who knows, but he's my mag so nyah

It's official! it's April 8th in england, I am TWENTY years old! x.x I feel old, I'm nolonger a teenager XD s'only 2:30am here so not done anything yet, got my 360 yesterday so been playing with that, and my dad gave me some cash and a funky steel keyring with my name on it, gonna go town later n get Halo 3 or Viva Pinata for the 360 since I've played one and heard the other rules

Hoping I'll have enough money left over for some birthday art too, thank you by the way nacht nacht for Doing that profile type picture your doing for me <3 sorry it's being such a pain in the ass hehe XD antyone else who wants too do a birthday giftart, I aint gonna stop yas ^.~ *wiggly eyebrows* hehe I joke, only do somethin if you wanna =3

Peace all, and have a great day if you can

Help! x.x

I just looked at the date here.. 4:35AM on the 11th of march... less than a month too go before I'm nolonger a teenager and I turn Twenty x.x oddly, my subscription too DA runs out on the same day, ominouse hehe..

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I don't wanna be old! >.<

Umm.. ok, question.. how the hell did I break 10'000 page views? O.o I'm no artist, I rarely commission/upload.. yet I got my 10K and more o.O thanks guys!

Also just a general update on things, the hospitals still dicking me around and no sign of them actually helping me still, go the NHS >.< other than that tho, doing pretty good
birthday in just over a month, turning the big 20, yay -.x draw my magly ass and cake damn yooou X3 hehe just kiddin
Finally quit warcraft so that gives me spare time too do other things, hopefully soon I'll know if I can afford a trip I've been planning for years too the big ol' USA, hoping going too stay in a diff country for a while, meet new people and get some help over there will help me get over my social phobias n stuff

Umm.. what else.. meh, if you got a question you wanna ask me, shoot, will see if I can answer em

Go! go to 's page and worship her n give her birthday wishes because it is her birthdah today!

hope you have a awsome day and get lottsa cool stuff =3 and I'm sorry I couldnt get you anything in time x.x just you wait though, will find somethin!